I see it now Lord. It’s everything you put on our hearts years ago. I didn’t always trust Your timing, but Your timing is more perfect, beautiful and redemptive than I could have ever written myself.
A few weeks ago, I felt truly broken in this process. I found myself crying out to the Lord that he work within me so that I could truly surrender. I have never craved and needed Him more.
The evening of February 8th
Being sick of feeling broken, I went to a quiet place to lean into Him and cry out an emotional day. I sat down, opened my phone and had an email from a lawyer telling me she had a situation she felt we were perfect for. I immediately broke down in tears; it felt right, really right. I looked up and said, “God if this is our baby, guide me, put peace in my heart, remove the fear and let me surrender.” Before I even opened the profile, my heart already knew I would be boldly throwing my yes on the table.
I began reading the details and immediately found myself falling in love with this expectant mama’s story. We talked over the email with our consultant, carefully wrote our letter to the expectant parents and waited.
February 14th (Valentine’s Day)
A voicemail that would forever change our lives. With beating hearts and teary eyes, we listened as the lawyer told us she wanted to give us the best possible news on Valentine’s Day, that “J” & “J” had CHOSEN US for their baby.
A baby GIRL, Due in May!
Kris fell to his knees and I fell on top of him. We were completely surrendered and in awe of God’s goodness and love, weeping together the most beautifully broken tears of pain and joy. Infertility. 3 failed IVF cycles. 6 years of hearing no after no and now a YES!
When you are in a season of waiting, it can seem like it will never happen. The thing you’re desperate for happens for everyone around you and your longing becomes fiercer. You pray to God. You pray the same prayers for days, months, years and you question. You trust but you question. The devil is in a wrestling match with what your Christian heart knows. He breaks you. He grows you. He teaches you. There is no choice but to slowly kill your faith with doubt, or to surrender and believe. He can do the impossible and unimaginable friends. I have seen far too much of Him to doubt Him now. He will do it. He will. Believe it!
Today we sit humbled, thankful and give all the honor and glory back to God. He was there the entire time.
O Lord, you are my God; I will exalt you; I will praise your name, for you have done wonderful things, plans formed of old, faithful and sure. – Isaiah 25:1
We are asking you to come along side us in prayer and support as its go time to complete our YouCaring fundraising goal! In our Christian walk, I truly believe God wants us to walk into the face of the impossible. This is really when our faith is activated. Although we still have $16,000 to raise in order to cover agency fees and it can feel impossible, we know the funds are the least of God’s worries. It really comes down to our obedience in Him to bring home Baby C! If your hearts feel led to join our giving community, our donation page is accessible here: www.youcaring.com/babychisholm
Please also pray for “J” & “J”, they need our prayers for peace that would surpass all understanding. Ask God to give them a shield of protection from the enemy and pray that they would feel completely loved and supported.
Pray for us as we will be flying to Florida next weekend and meeting with the expectant parents in 8 days! (We are SO excited!) Pray that God would protect us from the enemy, gives us a shield of peace and show us how to best love, support and encourage them. Pray that our connection is strengthened even more during this special time together.
Pray for the precious baby girl we are preparing our hearts to welcome in May! Pray that God the creator of life would ever so firmly keep His hand of protection over her.
To our village of amazing people that have come alongside us, we are humbly broken by your love. We honestly would not have gotten to this point without your generous support, prayer and encouragement. We still have a few months of waiting ahead and we know that while this is the most exciting time for us there is pain on the other side. We all need your prayers and love now more than ever.